I had a Volleyball game on Lanai and I was up till 1a making my infamous spam musubis for the team. I remember speaking to you earlier that Friday; you were in the hospital and you had just finished getting the camera down your throat so the doctors can see what was wrong with you; needless to say it was a short conversation because wanted you to get some rest and I was supposed to call you after our game to tell you how it went... That never happened.
I remember looking at my clock right before I fell asleep because I thought to myself "ok 1am I have 3 hours to sleep before I need to wake up to get to the bus." Then I got that horrible call at 2a that has forever changed my life. My worst fear had come true and having to live it everyday is indescribable.
3 years and it feels like yesterday... yup I'm still super upset! If only you could see us now and everything we've endured and accomplished! But... I'm sure you already know all of this right?
Its strange... Last year I missed you of course and needed you to help me get through what was a difficult thing for me to do; do something for me... just me and no one else. And I did it! I finished school through all the road blocks and now the real work begins... the reality of the fear sets in and I'm finding myself missing and needing you more then I did last year. The freshness of it all is mind blowing. What's even stranger is that through the pain, all of us have pushed on and we've turned to God to give us the strength that you would provide for us. None of us have stopped or played the victim long enough to let a huge chunk of our lives pass by. We've all carried each other through it and have the same belief; use our tragedy to help heal others. Because you raised us to be there for everyone else because we have our family to be there for us.
So, today is a reminder of what our family, your family Lives everyday; and its a day for us to be there for those who remember. <3
Missing you more than ever! I Love you always Marmy!
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight
Romans 12:12
Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing steadfastly in prayer
